Warning: Stream of thought writing ahead.

Today, as certain days do, reminded me how poor I am in some areas of interpersonal communicaiton. Right now I look forward to retiring (when I can afford it in 30 to 40 years) moving out into the country and not dealing with people. It's just too damm hard.

I was reminded that I talk too freely, trust too much and think out loud far too often. It gets me in trouble every time. A good friend (my wife) gave me very good advice and a very clear assessment regarding certain strengths and (mostly) certain weaknesses. Good though her advice and assessment is I'd rather move into the hills or work in the refugee camps again.

Today I'm willing to admit I regret accepting God's call, at least in this manner. I suspect I'd be happier and serve better in a far different situation.

Thanks for letting me vent. Perhaps I'll have clearer insight tomarrow.