Friday, June 23, 2006

debating with one's self

Me, myself and I are in the midst of a long and intense debate. The core issue is whether to continue in the pastorate or leave. Complicating issues include supporting my family, sending my kids to school, my faith, depression, anxiety just to name a few.

The sad truth: I don't leap out of bed eager to get at the work. Honestly I'm not certain I've felt that way since I left Somalia 20 years ago. I don't like feeling this way. I feel I've let my family down, my God down, and myself down. I hate it.

This all could "simply" be the cumulative effects of the health issues I've faced over the last few years.

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